Back to the Grind

Today I returned to work. Yesterday I cried all day. I had no more tears today. Well, maybe one or two. You were safe and in the best of hands. Auntie Christina will be watching you while I go to work each day. I couldn't ask for a better person to do this most important job. I wish more than anything that it was me that was home each day with you. But unfortunately this is how its got to be (at least until we win the lottery!)

Auntie said that you had a great day. You slept until 9:15 and then ate. She wasn't able to get you down for another nap though. You would fall asleep in her arms and when she would put you down in bed you would wake within a few minutes. I am not sure why. Maybe because you are in a new place with someone other than me. Even though you wouldn't rest, she said you were still as happy as can be. I hope you get used staying there and are able to nap!!

Today was a hard day but I was so busy that it went quick. And as soon as I was able I raced home to get you and your sister. Now I am counting down the days until Christmas break. It will be two weeks of doing nothing but holding you and Natalie tight and cherishing each moment.

PS-Lately you have been starting to coo and talk to us. Last night I was rocking you and you giggled about 4 times in your sleep. Daddy and I were laughing at how cute you were. I just love how expressive and adorable you have been getting. Tomorrow we go to the doctors. I can't wait to see how much you have grown!

8 Weeks Old

Today you are eight weeks old. 56 day you have been in my life. They have been the most amazing and wonderful days I have ever had. I spend most days sitting with you in my rocking chair, staring at you, smelling your sweet baby smell, kissing your tiny toes, stroking your gorgeous hair, and enjoying every moment of the last 56 days. I have only two weeks and four days before I have to return to work. My heart breaks thinking that I will be away from you for 9 hours each day. How can I live without having you close to me every second. You will be with your Auntie Christina, the best sitter a boy could every have. So I am not worried about you in the least. But I am sad for me. I am sad for the sweet moments that I will miss out on. But I am going to rush home each day and pick you up as soon as possible because you and your sister are more important than ANY job.

You are growing and changing each day. Your steel grayish eyes are slowly turning into to this deep delicious chocolate brown. I have a feeling they are going to match your big sister's soon. You have grown in length and you're quite the chunky monkey. So scrumptious! Even though you are only two months old you are wearing 3-6 months clothes!! You still have all your dark hair and side burns(oh, so cute!). Most people say you look like Daddy but I disagree. I think you look more like me and my baby pictures.

You are still very snuggley. You love to cuddle. In fact, after your first feeding in the middle of the night, you end up staying in our bed and cuddling until morning. At first, I tried to put you back in the bassinet. You would just grunt and complain until I put you next to me. Then you would quiet down instantly. After a while of trying this each night, I just gave up. Now I can't wait for you to wake up in the middle of the night so we can snuggle all night. I have to enjoy this stage because soon you will be holding your head up and wanting to face the world instead of laying your head on my shoulder.

You still hardly ever cry. When you are hungry you start off grunting (I have yet to get it on video. I am working on it) You only cry if I wait to long to feed you. You just have this calmness about you. You are content wherever you are. But I am most content when you are in my arms. You will be lucky if you are ever allowed to crawl or walk. I promise I will stop carrying you by high school. Haha.

So far you've had a pretty exciting life. You have been to Disneyland three times already. Your first ride you ever went on was the Carousel. You have also been on Buzz Lightyear, Dumbo, Monsters Inc., and Winnie the Pooh. You slept through most of them. You have even been to the movies already. Your Auntie Jennie, Cousin Sara, and I took you to see This Is It, the Michael Jackson film. You watched the screen for most of the movie and you seemed to really enjoy the music.


I just love you so much. Thank you for the best 56 days!

Nathan Smiles

 

You are almost eight weeks old now and you are starting to do super cute things, like smile. I caught a bit of it on video. I just love watching it over and over. Your smile brightens my day. I just love you so much!

Just the Two of Us

The other night you and I found ourselves alone, just the two of us. Natalie was sound asleep and Daddy was out in the garage with a few friends. So you and I rocked together in the rocking chair. I just love this time when it is just the two of us snuggling close. I was holding you tightly, looking into your deep gray eyes. It seems as if you were looking into mine too. Soon your eyes got very heavy and they would close. But ever so often you would open then just a tiny bit....just to see if I was still there. I will always be there for you. All you have to do is open your eyes.



I have only been blessed with you in my life for five weeks, but I would not be able to live without you.....ever! I love you all my heart!

One Month

I can hardly believe that you have been in my life for one month. Time has just flown by. I wish I could slow it down just a bit (or a lot). It has been one of the most wonderful and memorable months. I have loved every second with you.

The first week was exciting yet filled with unexpected events. You spent the first week of your life in the NICU. You had fluid in your lungs and you were having a difficult time breathing. The doctors were unsure if you had pneumonia so you were given a seven day dose of medicine. I promise to write a birth story to tell you all about our stay in the hospital.

From the moment you entered into this world, you have been the most mellow and sweetest baby I have ever been around. You love to be held but you can also just lay in your bassinet, wide awake just staring quietly into space. The only time you ever cry is if you are hungry.



I spend much of my day rocking you and staring into your deep grayish eyes. I love when you stare back. It seems as though you are studying and learning who I am. Sometimes when I talk to you, you seem to give me a little smile. Now most people would say that you are too young, but I just know you are smiling at me. You are so snuggley and soft that I could hold you all day. Some days I do. I know that you will be my last baby, so I am soaking up and enjoying every minute with you.

At two and a half weeks, you rolled over from your stomach to your back. The first day you did it about eight times. Every time I would put you on your belly you would flip right over. You did it again tonight on your One Month Birthday. You seem to want to grow up so fast. Please slow down or you are gonna have one sad Momma on your hands.

Before you were born Daddy and I were a little nervous. We would look at your big sister and watch how wonderful she is. How could we get lucky twice? But now that you are here and you are just AMAZING, we thank God that we got lucky twice. Thank you for joining our family and being the perfect fit to our four piece puzzle. I love you with all my heart, always and forever.

First Letter

In just three short weeks I will get to meet you. My second child, but my first son. I should be nervous because I know how much work it is going to be, but I can't help feeling only excitement in seeing your face, holding you close, and smelling that sweet baby smell.

Right now we are experiencing a bit of a heat wave. This happened when I was pregnant with your sister, Natalie. I guess that it is just my luck. So it is safe to say that I am hot, grumpy, and frustrated. Three weeks cannot come fast enough.

So far you are nameless. Daddy and I are having a difficult time deciding what it should be. We have a small list and have decided to wait to see what you look like before choosing. So hopefully you will look like one of the names we have chosen. We already have your middle name. You will have your Daddy's name, Garrett. I have always loved that name....could be because I love your daddy so much.

Your big sister Natalie has been waiting a long, long time to meet you. We told her about you when I was pregnant just 13 weeks. I thought that she would be upset that you weren't a baby sister, but she is absolutely excited that you are going to be a boy. Although, she has been waiting so long, I don't know if she really believes you are coming. So if you want to come early, please do!!

I can't wait to meet you, Little Guy.